falling in love

so I've been MIA for a while, sorry ladies. i'm sure you understand..this time of year can make you feel like a day has about 2 hours in it.

so I've found that when I study, i need to listen to music. otherwise its hopeless. So I've taken to listening to KLove online (Jesus music yay!) and this song plays pretty often that i absolutely love. It's called How He Loves Us by David Crowder Band...and it starts out with the line 'He is jealous for me.'

One of my biggest breakthroughs this semester has been discovering how real God's love for us is, and how passionately and deeply He loves us, and how desperately He longs for us to love Him back. How jealous He must be of all the things that come between us in our lives...from school and pride to boys and money. I mean, think about how jealous you get when the boy you like is flirting with somebody else, or putting his friends before you...it sucks. And God gets shot down by us way way..way too often.

so i was meditating the other day on how i can live out my love for Him. I forget who, but either Father Kevin or Father Peter was talking about sometimes, when we pray, we just need to sit with God and tell Him we love Him.

for some reason, I've never done that. I've sat quietly and cleared my head, i've talked a lot in prayer, but I've never just told Him how much i love Him. so the other day, I did it for the first time ever. Now, I've never been in love so I'm not sure what thats supposed to feel like but.... i'm pretty sure it was like the first time you tell someone you love them. And your heart just feels so full and you just want to jump up and start dancing because life is so sweet.

To love and be loved is the purpose of the human soul, and to be allow yourself to be loved by God, perfectly... is inexplicable as far as nurturing your heart goes. Because once you have that love going between you and God, He can fill up your heart and allow you to love other people they way they want and need to be loved...which is basically the coolest thing ever.

I love you ladies sooo much <3